| so wow guys i totally forgot that i even had a xanga... i thought for some reason seeing as i havent been on it for ages i thought that it would be deleted by now.. but i guess they thought that they should keep me around lol... well things have changed alot in my life.. me and matt are no longer together... it happend like a month ago.. well just about anyways.. me and kaite are gunna get our own place in glens falls.. we move in before the 8th of this month... so its gunna be sweet.... i was dateing this kid brian.. but as of tonight i think were done ... i love him so much but i couldnt stand that he wouldnt show the love back so i figured if he really liked me.. or loved me as he put it.. he could prove it to me.. and thats what im hopeing happends.... umm what else... im hangin out with old friends again... adam shane justin kaite o..... hangin out with them reminded me of all the good times we had.... and i cant believe i ever stopped hangin with them... umm i started hangin with sarah goodspeed again... well that was like this may i think we started... and im so happy we did... i missed her alot... shes cool shit... lol... umm im not going to college anymore... dropped out my frist year.. lets just say i really didnt wanna go... i went for my mom and next time i will never let someone decide what i wanna do with my life... i love getting drunk.. i just dont like the after affects... sometimes it kicks my ass.... im missing brian right now... it sucks how things had to work out like this... and another thing to note... im gunna be really tired tomorrow for work... lol.. but i guess its gunna be alright... i only have to get up at 9 so it wont be that bad... i work at day care and i love every minute of it.. wow i pretty much told u my hole life story in this big entry... well not my hole life story.. just the past couple of months.. i dont even remeber how long ago i wrote in here.... well i guess im gunna go now.. im whicked tired from staring at the screen.. and i hate it when that happends... well i might be back to up date or i may not.. idk.. i got a myspace now and that pretty much takes up alot of my time.. plus im never home and i wont have internet at my appartment... but i can always come here i know ....lol.. well check u all late.. peace!!!! |
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| well as u can guess... everything with me and matt are good.... were back together and every thing is normal again.... which im glad about.... cuz i love him so much.....  other than that nothing has been really going on lately.... my family is leaveing for a week and a half on thursday.... so im gunna have the house to my self.. and u know what that means... parties!!! hell ya bitches...and i have the power to kick people out... and invite who ever i want to... which is sweet.... but im gunna go now... i will up date more later.... peace.. |
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| so last night was a laugh... me and matt had went to red lobster and every thing was fine.. well we started talkin and i had told him something that i had held in for about 6 months or so.. and he started freaking out on me... well he didnt really yell much cuz we were in red lobster.. but when we got in the car.... and i was giving him the silent treatment.. he started tweeking the fuck out on me... he started yelling so loud... and i couldnt do anything cuz i was in the car... i tryed blocking him out by putting my hands over my ears... but he just yelled louder.... he started saying how i always lie to him.. which isnt true.. and i always accuse him of doing shit behind my back.. which i only did that to him over one person... so after he had said that he really pissed me off so i looked him right in the eyes and said flat out that we were done... me little amber sticking up for my self..... so i got out of the car and the first thing i did was call up kaite... i couldnt even talk to her to tell her what was wrong... all i could ask was can i come over... and even then i really couldnt get it out.. so i went over there and hung out for a little while.. then matt called and he came over and we talked... were better now... but still not back together.... i want to make him waite.. probably only until tomorrow... but hey still it happend last night... so im pretty strong if i lasted this long... im proud of my self.... well other than that... nothing really much went on... but as u can see i had a fun filled night.... but im better now.... i think im gunna spend the night at amandas tonight.... travs on dutty and she doesnt wanna stay alone... so im here for her... well i will check u all later.... |
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| so last night was fun..... just hung out with a group of people... played beer pong and just had fun... it was a nice party cuz we didnt have like thousands of people like we usally do..... so any ways it was nice hangin out with sarah again.. ive missed her so much.... its gunna be like old times again.... but with the beer drinkin into affect..lol... but were deff gunna hang out again.... it makes me so happy when im around her.... well im gunna go nothing else really to say... other than im going over to amandas and travs for a little bit tonight... they got an appartment in hf... so im so excited that i dont have to go all the way past lake george every time i wanna see them.... but i will check u later.. hey and maybe i'll hang out with kendie today.... peace everyone |
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 thats for u matt... 
alright well im off to bed everyone.. im mad tired and i gotta get up at like 7:30ish to go to school tomorrow.. so i guess i will up date everyone later about whats going on in my life.. and probably no one really cares.. so bye everyone.. have a nice night looking at these things..
 *~i LoVe YoU mAtThEw~* |
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